S.O.S

Suddenly I am two different people.
One of me
(we'll call her Ash)
Wants to make this work.
She keeps saying,
Think about this.
He's sweet,
He's trying really hard,
He cares about you deply,
And most people would kill to have a guy like that.
You're being silly,
Not seeing what you have right in front of you.
And my God, those eyes...
But
The other part;
Leigh;
She says
Get out while the goin's still good.
She is constantly screaming
This isn't right,
He's not the kind of person you need.
You need silliness and space,
Oxygen,
Room to breathe,
Independance.
You're trapped.
And the longer you wait,
The harder it will be.
You don't want to go through this again.
Remember when we were single?
Remember how much fun we had?
Ah, the good old days...
And so while Ash and Leigh are batteling it out,
Ashleigh is stuck in the center,
An optimistic, sweet heart on her right shoulder,
A freedom loving angst poet on her left,
And Ashleigh is slowly losing her mind.
I don't know what to do.
And I hate not knowing.
I wish I could give a deffinite answer.
My gut says one thing,
And my heart says another.
My deep desire for lasting connections,
Companionship
And comfort
is saying;
Stay.
Wait it out just a little longer.
Then, my need to be free,
To be able to joke and play and run
Says that its time to go.
And the pit of my stomache says something's not right.
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Relationships suck.