A Beautiful Breakdown

You're so far away.
I want to hold you too.
I want to be with you too.
But you're so far away.
As I sit alone,
Silenced in silent corners,
My mind drifts.
It drifts to being close,
Being held,
Being safe.
And you're so far away.
I am my own enemy.
My worst nightmare.
The one thing holding me back.
And you're so far away.
So far away that my nerve endings itch.
Desperate for warmth,
Solice,
Comfort.
And you're so far away.
I had a plan,
Damnit.
A good one.
I was going to be independant.
And you're so far away.
I was going to be somewhere,
Doing something,
On my own.
I was going to live free.
Im so far away.
Now I just want you to be closer.
Sooner.