(exhale)

This waiting is making me crazy.
I know you are trying to decide between me, and someone else,
And it's killing me.
I wish it was something you just knew.
It's my fault. I told you to take your time.
Of course, for once, you listen.
It really doesn't matter.
I've already proven to you, myself, and the rest of the planet
That I am not going anywhere.
I tried to move on, and it felt wrong.
It wasn't there.
I realized, I don't care about him the way I care about you.
It was impossible to even think of him in the same brainspace that thoughts of you were once stored.
A great friend once told me,
"Once you truely fall in love,
You will never fall out"
Well, let me tell ya,
It's a blessing and a curse.
I wish I didn't love you.
I hate that I love you. But I do.
And I just want it to be over.
I need you to either take me back,
Or tell me you can never see me again.
Then I need you to dissapear.
Because I will always love you.
And seeing you hurts.
And while I'm here waiting for you,
I'm getting used to being lonely,
And that's what scares me the most.