Dawning

As the summer fades,
and slowly,
Comes to a close,
I realize something.
I will never get those days back.
As I am here, trying to keep up,
The world is hurdeling around me,
Doing laps around my breathless body.
Yesterday, I was two years old.
I was dreamind wide eyed,
Into a kalydascope,
Dinosaurs spinning around,
Glitter and water dancing around them.
Now, I sit here tonight,
Typing on my computer, and no one is listening.
No one hears what I am saying.
And no one would get it even if they did.
I am sitting here, talking to you,
Or the invisible, non existant something,that I have chosen to call "you".
I have to make plans.
I have to live my life.
Im going to have to leave home, away from the comfort,
And the safety,
And the acceptance,
And venture out into a world that I don't understand,
And that scares the hell out of me.
I AM afraid.
Not because I'm growing up.
Because I'll never grow up again.