Wanting

My heart is heavy,
And my eyes are weak.
I am losing consiousness along with my faith.
The storm keeps coming,
And I keep fighting,
But my attempts are feeble, and pointless.
Nothing I do can keep it away.
And in the midst of it all,
I cry out to you.
Lonliness overflows in my soul,
And I feel nothing.
Nothing except when you touch me.
Nothing except when you smile.
You make it better, and yet,
You don't know.
You don't know how lonley I am.
How desperately I want to just be held.
To feel safe.
I have been protecting myself for too long.
I no longer have the strength.
Or the desire.
I have enclosed myself in walls,
Built by my own hands,
And now, not even the sun can break through.
I have been waiting,
Waiting for someone who cares enough,
To tare down these confining walls,
And pull me out of the hole I have created.
Yes, I am waiting,
But something has changed.
And now, I know what I want.
What I need.
And what I need is you.
I need you to tare it down.
To want to know me on a level that no one has before.
To understand me.
To see that I am crazy,
And reckless,
And tameless.
That I run with reckless abandon,
With no destination in mind.
And I need you to love me anyway.
This is selfish of me, I know.
You deserve everything.
You deserve the world,
And all I can give you,
Is the ability,
mad passion,
and traveling partner,
To see every square inch of it.
I can't offer you wisdom,
Or even stability.
I wasn't born to be stable.
But,
If you want it,
If you are willing to give up the life that you deserve,
And take a chance with me,
Live on the edge of reality for a while,
And go farther then two wanderers have ever gone before,
I will give you everything.
Every part of me.
On my whole heart, I will engrave your name,
And place it in your hand.
Trust you with my fragile soul,
And follow you all the days of my life.