I want to be brave.

Shhh. Stop. Nows the moment. Closer...closer...make contact...eyes closed...deep breath...5,4,3,2-

fail. Its like a trainwreck.

Lets runaway, just you and me.
These walls and this town are closing in.
Its always something.
Someone.
Every time.
I just want to be with you.
Where nothing can stop the flow.
We can sleep all day,
Under the warmth of the sun,
In a field built for you and I.
Breathing slowly, feathery eyed.
Interlaced beneath the sky.
We can run, hand in hand,
Through tall grass, ignoring time and space,
And everyones plans.
Don't you want to get away?
Make the great escape, like we used to say we would.
Jump a train, ride until we're caught.
Make our lives where the train tracks stop.
Im tired of life getting in the way.
Of holding back any public display.
You and I, well, we're meant to be.
I hope that you haven't lost sight of our dreams.
One of these days, I will show you a place
Where we can dissapear.
Inside our hearts, our souls, our minds,
Nomatter where we go.
We need to be wild,
While were still young.
Im in, If you're in.

@#$%^%$%#

I can feel you
Slipping through my fingers like dry sand.
My heart is pounding faster and faster.
I find myself naucious.
Ive felt like this before.
Like my entire world is about to spin off of its axis, and I wont know why.
And I wont be able to stop it.
I love you.
So much.
More than I can explain.
And I know that you are tired.
And you're probably getting frusterated.
And thats okay.
I want to be everything you need, and everything you could imagine wanting.
And Im trying to be.
Because I know I can.
I know its taking forever, and you are losing faith.
But don't give up on me.
There are things holding me back,
That shouldn't be holding me back anymore.
And Im trying to let go for you.
Slowly, it's working.
So don't give up on me yet.
You are my world.
And I dont want to lose you.

<3

Safe.
The world is scary. Terrifying, even.
Everywhere I turn, Im finding more things to dread.
There are darkened corners,
And shifting shaddows.
Masked offenders,
And creeping villains.
Nothing is risk free.
No where is safe.
No where but with you.
Im very rarely not afraid.
Very seldomly do I find courage or bravery.
Usually I am just fine hiding in my shell
Where I know the limits.
But you.
You are not afraid.
I dont think you're afraid of anything.
And your courage keeps me calm.
I know,
Beyond a shaddow of a doubt,
That I do not have to be afraid.
Not when Im with you.
I dont need to look over my shoulder,
Or mark a path,
Or stand on constant guard.
I can relax
And breathe.
Find comfort in knowing that I get to be the girl attached to your arm,
For as long as destiny allows.
And I want you to know,
I have not felt that way in a very long time.
Sweetly,
Simply,
Safe.